Thursday, August 14, 2014

Our adoption home study was approved!

My husband, Chad, and I have been taking classes, preparing tons of paperwork, meeting with caseworkers and more for about 10-11 months. We are very happy to announce that we found out two weeks ago that our home study was approved! The plan, that God laid on our hearts last August, is to adopt a sibling group so they can have the chance to stay together. We haven't shared much to this point because we were unsure how long this part of the process would take. Now, we work with others to find the children we will be blessed enough to parent! We are thankful to know that before The Lord created the heavens and the earth, He knew which children would be in our home for us to love! We appreciate any prayers as we continue through this process!

Friday, December 13, 2013

Pregnancy Test Results

I want to thank you all for your prayers as we've walked down this road of infertility. Unfortunately, I just heard from my doctor's office and the results of my pregnancy test are negative. I trust in the Lord's will for our lives, but my heart feels like it is breaking. I will post more when I feel up to it.

Monday, December 9, 2013

The Dreaded Two Week Wait

The two week wait to find out whether you are pregnant or not is hard for everyone, I’m sure. I think that the two week wait for anyone who has gone through IVF can tell you that the two week wait post-IVF is agonizing. I’ve spent months and months praying through that two week wait, but when you know that healthy embryos were transferred, it can be even harder to wait patiently. You try to stay busy and not think about it every second of every minute of every hour of every day. However, that is easier said than done. We have to wait until this Friday to find out whether this round of IVF was successful and whether a miracle has occurred and we will be given the opportunity to become biological parents. Our trust is in the Lord.

Tuesday, December 3, 2013

Embryo Transfer

Wanted to update everyone on our status. On Saturday, November 30th, we had 3 embryos transferred. We are praying that a true miracle occurs, and that we are able to have a biological child in our arms in 2014. We have seen God be so incredibly faithful throughout our marriage and our lives. We are thankful for all that God has provided for us!

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

To ICSI or not to ICSI?

Do we do ICSI or not? That is the question Chad and I wrestled with last night and this morning. As I was praying this morning, I really felt like God was telling me to trust Him. At the beginning of this year, 2013, our pastor asked us to choose a word for the year. The word I chose was trust, and it has been impactful countless times. I've learned a lot about trust over the past year, and really felt like God has been teaching me. So, we decided that we would tell the doctor that we were choosing not to do ICSI.

I asked the doctor what his thoughts were on whether we should do ICSI or not (before telling him the conclusion Chad and I came to). We talked about our past cycles of IVF, and the doctor said he would double check my chart.  He said he thought we did not need to do ICSI. That was encouraging, especially since we already had come to the conclusion that we were not going to do ICSI. 

I have all of my instructions for the coming days and weeks. My egg retrieval is tomorrow morning. I have to be there at 9 a.m., and the retrieval should happen at 10 a.m. They did a blood draw today to make sure that the trigger shot I took last night was working, and the nurse called and said that everything looks good for tomorrow morning!

We appreciate any prayers!

Monday, November 25, 2013

Trigger Shot - Tonight!

I just heard from my doctor that I will be taking my trigger shot tonight at 10 p.m. That means that I'll have to be at my doctor's office at 9 a.m. on Wednesday for the egg retrieval. My estrogen and progesterone continue to be right where they need to be.

I have an appointment tomorrow morning to go over everything I will need to know before Wednesday. We have to make the decision, along with the doctors, on whether or not we will do ICSI. That is where they take an individual sperm and inject it into the egg. If they don't do ICSI, then they let the sperm fertilize the egg on their own. We've had good fertilization in the past, but there's always a possibility that without ICSI, none could fertilize. However, at the same time, ICSI is another form of manipulation between the eggs and sperm. So, please pray for wisdom as we make this choice by tomorrow morning.

Thanks, too, for the continued prayers. We continue to pray for a miracle! 

The nurse seems very upbeat about how things have progressed this cycle. 

One bit of good news about taking the trigger shot tonight is that I will not have any shots or needles anywhere in my skin for about 36 hours! I'll go all day tomorrow without a blood draw, shot or IV. Also, it will be the first time in several weeks that I haven't had to get up for a 6:30 a.m. shot. I'm feeling very excited about that! 

We are trusting that the Lord is holding each of these moments in His hands. We know that He is in control, and we are so thankful that He loves us. Whether this cycle of IVF ends in us having a biological child or not, we are in awe of all that He has done for us. We are thankful that He has allowed us to grow, as individuals and as a couple, over the last 10 years. I can see the many ways God has been there for us, and am in complete awe of the fact that He loves me enough to care about every detail.

Sunday, November 24, 2013

Emotional Roller Coaster

I meant to post this yesterday (Saturday)...

I've had an emotional 24 hours! Last night I realized that I only had enough medication to get through Monday morning and evening. When I was in yesterday, they asked if I had enough medication to make it through the weekend. I told them that yes, I did, and what I had left. They thought that sounded fine. Then, I started to realize (after the pharmacy had closed) that if I ordered medication on Monday, I would not get it on Tuesday in time for my 6:30 a.m. shot. So, I had a hard time sleeping last night. I was trying not to worry, but sometimes it can seem overwhelming. 

So, this morning I had my blood draw and ultrasound. As we were driving in, Chad and I were talking about how I could get rid of the anxiety. Chad asked if I could think of a BIble verse that could help in the situation. My first thought was Philippians 4:6, "Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." So, we talked about it, we discussed the importance of both parts of the verse, not just not being anxious, but also being thankful. We were thankful to have the time in the car to be able to pray with one another. 

We had to wait nearly an hour and a half at the doctor's office, and the longer I waited, the more I'd sit and hope and pray that all would work out with our medications. It's such a precise science, that we know we have to be careful. On the other hand, we know the Lord is in control. So, as we're waiting, the nurse came in to let us know that the doctor would be in shortly. We asked her about the medication, and let her know that we'd be willing to replace it if only they could give us a couple vials. They did not have any, but they found a specialty pharmacy that deals with IVF medications in Lake Mary (only 20 minutes from our doctor's office). You can't buy the medication we take at CVS, Walgreens or any local drugstores, so that was a miracle in itself! So, we were able to get the medication that we may (or may not) need on Tuesday. The prices were also competitive with the mail order pharmacy rates...which is helpful (the cost of the medication is extremely high). Praise God for that!

We also found out that we have about 18 follicles. Some are very small and will most definitely not have mature eggs. However, that's a great number at this point. They've asked me to come in again tomorrow to have a blood draw and ultrasound again. We're getting closer each day to the egg retrieval. My estradiol continues to climb (it was 987 today), and that is a good thing!

When we got in the car after getting the medication, I told Chad it was all I could do to keep the tears from pouring down my face. This journey has been such a roller coaster...not just this cycle, but over all of the years we've been trying to conceive. We trust in God, His plans and we are so thankful that He is with us always. 

I know that was really long, but we are feeling so thankful that the Lord worked everything out!